So its snowing, this is not news :)
I'm going to a snowball fight later its gonna be epic and I dint even feel guilty for blowing off my essay hehe. I think the last snowball fight I was in was back in 1994-95 ad it was before the days when such things were banned in school. It was pretty awesome, unfortunately I had decided to get back at a few bullies figuring that they would never notice it was me in the hail of snowballs. This, it turns out, was wrong. Ah well
Snow
There's something about it that beings out the child in anyone, yeah ok I concede you may get a few grumps who look jaundicedly out of a window and proclaim in a Eeyore voice " Well how am I supposed to drive in this"
I don't care cos Im a pedestrian, that said I did fall on my ass twice yesterday and apparently its even worse out there today, hehe.
The diets going well as far as I can tell, having no scales means I'm pretty much guessing at this point, but what has startled me are the amount of people who are worried about me. Normally when I diet (not that on a diet) people say "good on ye" and then forget all about it with the unspoken words"about bloody time" this time though people are worried I'm not doing it right and will soon waste away to nothing (although that would take me several years) Joking aside eating disorders are not funny and can lead to serious health problems. I don't think a "love of cheeseburgers " constitutes having one but you cant be too careful.
The trouble is of course that although i feel a bit better I don't look any different so its usually at this stage I get discouraged and start eating chips. Not this time!
I'm joining a gym
Ive only joined a gym twice before and both times it really worked but both times money was the issue and frankly I don't have a solution to this yet but perhaps something will come to me. Bottom line is that this time I'm going to succeed HAH.
Also last night we experienced thundersnow!!!
A kinda rare phinomomin.......phanonimin.......p....h.....fuckit thing where the conditions are just right and there is thunder and lightning AND snow. It..was...awesome
P.S i apologise for the bad pun in the title, couldn't help myself
Favourite type of weather? I LOVE really heavy rain, with a thunderstorm
Sunday 28 November 2010
Tuesday 23 November 2010
Religion......oh dear and winters coming yaaay
So the blogs fallen off a wee bit, all my own fault really but hopefully this is me back for a bit. Recently I've been having allot of conversations with people about the nature of the Christian religion. Not for any reason other than in History class we are talking about the 14th to 16th century and frankly allot of the stuff that happened then was to do with that particular thing.
Now like allot of you I was raised in a Christian religion, protestantism to be precise and additionally like allot of you I stopped believing in it around the time I stopped sticking lego up my nose. (about 6 months ago, kidding)
Once I was free to choose my own religious belief's i did just that.
However what surprised me about the class is that many times during our discussions it became apparent that nearly half of the class were not only Christan but regularly attended church. I honestly thought in this day and age belief's in the Christian faith had dwindled and that very few people actually believed in the big beard in the sky.
Now OK I'm being glib here and and not mocking anyone for their beliefs (and frankly as someone who believes everything has "energy" I'm on shaky ground there) I was just surprised is all.
Actually just briefly
Have you ever noticed how some friends just....exhaust you? You talk to them , you have a good time, they are usually quite a lively type person but afterwards you just want to sleep. Now this is not true of all talky people, I know tones of folk who will talk till their tongue drops out but will never tire me out like others do.
Just a thought...
Or like people will talk about a room having a feel to them.?
Meh.
Oh and also today was the first time I heard a Christmas song played in the union, sad I know considering its only October but there you have it.
I like winter actually, when the snow covers everything it makes everything seem..new again. Like its been wiped clean for a fresh start.
Do you have a memory like that?
Your all wrapped up till only you nose is really cold, your green wellies crunch satisfactorally on the crisp white snow and your breath steams out from under your scarf. The air tastes clean and burns your lungs a bit but you take deep breaths anyway. Then you turn the corner and there's your house and inside you know that a parent has a big mug of hot chocolate ready with little marshmallows in and you go and sit with your small hands wrapped round the mug and look out of the window as a new flurry starts, wiping out what small impressions you made on the snow on your way up.
mmmmmmm, cosy
Now like allot of you I was raised in a Christian religion, protestantism to be precise and additionally like allot of you I stopped believing in it around the time I stopped sticking lego up my nose. (about 6 months ago, kidding)
Once I was free to choose my own religious belief's i did just that.
However what surprised me about the class is that many times during our discussions it became apparent that nearly half of the class were not only Christan but regularly attended church. I honestly thought in this day and age belief's in the Christian faith had dwindled and that very few people actually believed in the big beard in the sky.
Now OK I'm being glib here and and not mocking anyone for their beliefs (and frankly as someone who believes everything has "energy" I'm on shaky ground there) I was just surprised is all.
Actually just briefly
Have you ever noticed how some friends just....exhaust you? You talk to them , you have a good time, they are usually quite a lively type person but afterwards you just want to sleep. Now this is not true of all talky people, I know tones of folk who will talk till their tongue drops out but will never tire me out like others do.
Just a thought...
Or like people will talk about a room having a feel to them.?
Meh.
Oh and also today was the first time I heard a Christmas song played in the union, sad I know considering its only October but there you have it.
I like winter actually, when the snow covers everything it makes everything seem..new again. Like its been wiped clean for a fresh start.
Do you have a memory like that?
Your all wrapped up till only you nose is really cold, your green wellies crunch satisfactorally on the crisp white snow and your breath steams out from under your scarf. The air tastes clean and burns your lungs a bit but you take deep breaths anyway. Then you turn the corner and there's your house and inside you know that a parent has a big mug of hot chocolate ready with little marshmallows in and you go and sit with your small hands wrapped round the mug and look out of the window as a new flurry starts, wiping out what small impressions you made on the snow on your way up.
mmmmmmm, cosy
Monday 22 November 2010
Internets back!!
Hiya!!
Look I'm sorry Ive been gone but the Internet was down in my flat. Well....how are you?? I'm fine, essays the usually heh. You look great by the way have you done something with your hair? I thought so :) Suits you.
I kinda missed it, glad to be back. I had taken to rambling nonsense to random people in the library and now no one will sit near me.
I learned the other day that one of my lecturers is 31. He's only eight or nine months older than me. Now of course some of this will be due to his massive brain but a part of me wonders what would of happened if id buckled down a bit in high school and sorted my life out sooner would I be up there teaching the class rather than sitting in it? Maby
My life at the moment if pretty good though so why wish for more. I can't help looking around of course and people around me are getting married, having kids, getting jobs. I feel Ive perhaps dragged my feet to long. I'm 30 years old and what do I have to show for my time ? nothing
Someone once said that you are not truly dead until your loved ones stop thinking about you. That you live on in their memories. How long after I'm gone will people remember me if I leave nothing behind part from a few well thumbed books.
This semester ends in 3 weeks, that's crazy. No time has past at all but here we are.
A friend of mine is leaving in a few days. Wither she is coming beck or not we don't know. I'm not sure she knows. She will be gone until September and its sad. The firs person I have met in Dundee. I was climbing up the stairs to halls with my arms full of books and at the last step i tripped and fell through the door right at her feet, books everywhere, she stared down at me and laughed thus setting the tone for our friendship from then on. I do something stupid she laughs at me.
She always needs to be right, she has to have things in just the right way, she never lets things go and she's a pain in the ass
And Im going to miss her terribly.
I actually cant remember if she read this blog or not, heh no doubt within minutes of posting it she'll come through punch me on the arm and call me an ass....not a friend punch eather she punches like im attacking her and she fighting for her life. Anyway if she does Hi C-bear, sorry if I embarrassed you or said something you didn't like but I cant edit these once there up so tough.
Im gonna head theres something in my eye
ttfn
Look I'm sorry Ive been gone but the Internet was down in my flat. Well....how are you?? I'm fine, essays the usually heh. You look great by the way have you done something with your hair? I thought so :) Suits you.
I kinda missed it, glad to be back. I had taken to rambling nonsense to random people in the library and now no one will sit near me.
I learned the other day that one of my lecturers is 31. He's only eight or nine months older than me. Now of course some of this will be due to his massive brain but a part of me wonders what would of happened if id buckled down a bit in high school and sorted my life out sooner would I be up there teaching the class rather than sitting in it? Maby
My life at the moment if pretty good though so why wish for more. I can't help looking around of course and people around me are getting married, having kids, getting jobs. I feel Ive perhaps dragged my feet to long. I'm 30 years old and what do I have to show for my time ? nothing
Someone once said that you are not truly dead until your loved ones stop thinking about you. That you live on in their memories. How long after I'm gone will people remember me if I leave nothing behind part from a few well thumbed books.
This semester ends in 3 weeks, that's crazy. No time has past at all but here we are.
A friend of mine is leaving in a few days. Wither she is coming beck or not we don't know. I'm not sure she knows. She will be gone until September and its sad. The firs person I have met in Dundee. I was climbing up the stairs to halls with my arms full of books and at the last step i tripped and fell through the door right at her feet, books everywhere, she stared down at me and laughed thus setting the tone for our friendship from then on. I do something stupid she laughs at me.
She always needs to be right, she has to have things in just the right way, she never lets things go and she's a pain in the ass
And Im going to miss her terribly.
I actually cant remember if she read this blog or not, heh no doubt within minutes of posting it she'll come through punch me on the arm and call me an ass....not a friend punch eather she punches like im attacking her and she fighting for her life. Anyway if she does Hi C-bear, sorry if I embarrassed you or said something you didn't like but I cant edit these once there up so tough.
Im gonna head theres something in my eye
ttfn
Tuesday 16 November 2010
...Just off the top of my head
Thought It would be fun to just write down whatever comes into my head rather than pick a topic. Rambling for ramblings sake :)
So, diets going well and even if I don't look any different I feel a bit better and that's always good.
Only three weeks to go before the exams start. I don't really feel prepared at all but it would seem that everyone feels the same so that makes me feel a bit better.
Two essays due in two weeks, this will (hopefully ) be a repeat of a few weeks ago when I had to write two essays in a weekend, shudder. I kinda promised myself that this semester I would work harder but if anything I feel I've slacked off a bit more. Damn
My club card points arrived, I feel dirty using them frankly. I'd like to think I'm not one of those people who does this sort of thing but as a penniless student id be daft not to take advantage of money off, ah well.
Got to the end of supernatural and now I need something else to watch, any suggestions?
The other day my flatmate threw my pillow into the shower when it was running..... I'm sure I was supposed to laugh it off and congratulate him on a good joke but all I felt was a lump in my throat thinking of all the times my clothes ended up in the showers in high school. AND I KNOW THAT'S STUPID.
That was years ago for one and my friend certainly didn't indent for me to get upset but I cant help feeling that after a certain point teasing becomes bulling....sigh anyway.
Watched who framed roger rabbit the other day, gods haven't seen that one in aaaages. Still funny and Jessica Rabbit is still the hottest collection of pixels I've seen (sorry miss Croft)
I need a hair cut..... badly I'm starting to look like I sleep rough.
I'm hungry.
I should get a DC poster to match my marvel superhero one, for balance of course. Its weird though the marvel characters always look a bit more rag-tag and fun. DC seems very uniform and austere. Think about it one side you have spiderman, wolverine and hulk....can you picture them?...Hulks the green one...sigh anyway next to them is Superman, Batman and Wonder women. See now I bet you pictured them arms folded glaring at you where as Spidy was probably upside down, hulk was mid smash and wolverine was snarling claws bared. Still not what youd want to meet in a dark ally but more varied. (also can I just add the spell check is goin nuts about spiderman etc but Superman?? oh yeah that's a word...its a conspiracy)
well better get back to the essays...they get lonely without me.
ttfn
So, diets going well and even if I don't look any different I feel a bit better and that's always good.
Only three weeks to go before the exams start. I don't really feel prepared at all but it would seem that everyone feels the same so that makes me feel a bit better.
Two essays due in two weeks, this will (hopefully ) be a repeat of a few weeks ago when I had to write two essays in a weekend, shudder. I kinda promised myself that this semester I would work harder but if anything I feel I've slacked off a bit more. Damn
My club card points arrived, I feel dirty using them frankly. I'd like to think I'm not one of those people who does this sort of thing but as a penniless student id be daft not to take advantage of money off, ah well.
Got to the end of supernatural and now I need something else to watch, any suggestions?
The other day my flatmate threw my pillow into the shower when it was running..... I'm sure I was supposed to laugh it off and congratulate him on a good joke but all I felt was a lump in my throat thinking of all the times my clothes ended up in the showers in high school. AND I KNOW THAT'S STUPID.
That was years ago for one and my friend certainly didn't indent for me to get upset but I cant help feeling that after a certain point teasing becomes bulling....sigh anyway.
Watched who framed roger rabbit the other day, gods haven't seen that one in aaaages. Still funny and Jessica Rabbit is still the hottest collection of pixels I've seen (sorry miss Croft)
I need a hair cut..... badly I'm starting to look like I sleep rough.
I'm hungry.
I should get a DC poster to match my marvel superhero one, for balance of course. Its weird though the marvel characters always look a bit more rag-tag and fun. DC seems very uniform and austere. Think about it one side you have spiderman, wolverine and hulk....can you picture them?...Hulks the green one...sigh anyway next to them is Superman, Batman and Wonder women. See now I bet you pictured them arms folded glaring at you where as Spidy was probably upside down, hulk was mid smash and wolverine was snarling claws bared. Still not what youd want to meet in a dark ally but more varied. (also can I just add the spell check is goin nuts about spiderman etc but Superman?? oh yeah that's a word...its a conspiracy)
well better get back to the essays...they get lonely without me.
ttfn
Monday 15 November 2010
Its a drunk thing part 3
So
huloooo
M drunk
I think the worst feeling in the world is "I like you as a friend, not someone i could date". i have heard this so many times its not even funny. im good enough to confide in but not enough to date.
Im the walking wounded someone cursed to walk the earth to be the friend , confident and accoumpilce to almost every girl i know. They will tell me thing s they wont tell a boy friend cos im safe.
Am i sick of it? no. i value that have someone to talk too, i value the fact they feel that i can help them but i also want to be wanted.
i want someone to look at me and think " hes hot" i maybe over stretching myself here maby cute is more my speed but al i want is someone to notice me, and not for the shoulder i can provide them. dont get me wrong everyone , i want to be the guy that people come too. I love to help people but i also want someone who cares about me.
When my relationship with my ex was winding down my maine thought was "what if no one ever looks at me again in that way" now this is a real concern but i had to deal with that. I was not willing to trap her in a loveless realtinshio just because the guy she was with did not feel the same way because i waas scared that i couldnt find anyone else. that woulnd't be right . so i ended t. this was i dunno 2 -3 years ago and i hanvent dated since .
Sigh this is not a plea for help or a pity party , just that i think that finding someone new is tough when you surrounded by 20 year old women and equally available 20 year old men ,
Am i kidding myself? should i just get through my degree and move on with the next stage? Forget having a relationship and focs on my studies ie wait till i have a hope? what is an unaccepted age gap? 5 years? 10? i didnt realide there was a rule really till comein here.
So im a friend of women thats awesome, the fat that they can open up to me is a thing i treaure but sometimes i just wish i could traasnfrm these frendishps to a relationsip.
How does one do that? from hahaha yur so funny to take you pants off?? I dont knoe ,. I atcheved it once and that was with a special women who loved me . Maby thats the answer, every realationshonsip is just a prelude to the great love, just a practise till you get it right. you have a dry run with every girl you date till it become right. Thats fine but all i want at this stage is simone who doesnt look at me and thingks "He can help me with my guy issues" i fel i sould stress that i dont harbor an inssue with that but i would like someone spevial to share it all with.
A fiend of mine met his special someone on-line. is that what i sould do? meet somoeon according to thie r profiele? ugg i want to meet some in a special way not cos the computer matched us up but because our lives joined at this point in our shared history.
perhaps then i dont have a point other than to say, search for that one perons they are out for you, and when you ifnd them let them knoe every day how muhc they mean to you
hope this means anythin really, g night. tfn
deleating this tommoro, u kow the drill
huloooo
M drunk
I think the worst feeling in the world is "I like you as a friend, not someone i could date". i have heard this so many times its not even funny. im good enough to confide in but not enough to date.
Im the walking wounded someone cursed to walk the earth to be the friend , confident and accoumpilce to almost every girl i know. They will tell me thing s they wont tell a boy friend cos im safe.
Am i sick of it? no. i value that have someone to talk too, i value the fact they feel that i can help them but i also want to be wanted.
i want someone to look at me and think " hes hot" i maybe over stretching myself here maby cute is more my speed but al i want is someone to notice me, and not for the shoulder i can provide them. dont get me wrong everyone , i want to be the guy that people come too. I love to help people but i also want someone who cares about me.
When my relationship with my ex was winding down my maine thought was "what if no one ever looks at me again in that way" now this is a real concern but i had to deal with that. I was not willing to trap her in a loveless realtinshio just because the guy she was with did not feel the same way because i waas scared that i couldnt find anyone else. that woulnd't be right . so i ended t. this was i dunno 2 -3 years ago and i hanvent dated since .
Sigh this is not a plea for help or a pity party , just that i think that finding someone new is tough when you surrounded by 20 year old women and equally available 20 year old men ,
Am i kidding myself? should i just get through my degree and move on with the next stage? Forget having a relationship and focs on my studies ie wait till i have a hope? what is an unaccepted age gap? 5 years? 10? i didnt realide there was a rule really till comein here.
So im a friend of women thats awesome, the fat that they can open up to me is a thing i treaure but sometimes i just wish i could traasnfrm these frendishps to a relationsip.
How does one do that? from hahaha yur so funny to take you pants off?? I dont knoe ,. I atcheved it once and that was with a special women who loved me . Maby thats the answer, every realationshonsip is just a prelude to the great love, just a practise till you get it right. you have a dry run with every girl you date till it become right. Thats fine but all i want at this stage is simone who doesnt look at me and thingks "He can help me with my guy issues" i fel i sould stress that i dont harbor an inssue with that but i would like someone spevial to share it all with.
A fiend of mine met his special someone on-line. is that what i sould do? meet somoeon according to thie r profiele? ugg i want to meet some in a special way not cos the computer matched us up but because our lives joined at this point in our shared history.
perhaps then i dont have a point other than to say, search for that one perons they are out for you, and when you ifnd them let them knoe every day how muhc they mean to you
hope this means anythin really, g night. tfn
deleating this tommoro, u kow the drill
Saturday 13 November 2010
Something a little.....differant
So ive been gone for a few days, one reason is that the internet round here has been acting funny, you know talking to itself, drooling and voting conservative the other reason was I gave blood on.....thursday? yeah thursday then did something very silly. I had a few beers, aaaand thats all it took. I don't really remember what happened but I do know I was at the union for a while. Coff anyway
Back now....oh and black ops came out and thats been taking alot of my time. It takes alot of energy to suck so hard at a game.
Got some essays due down the road so expect some more essay related whineing....uh I mean blogging.
So I figured Id try something a little differant today, rather than introduce a topic and ramble about it I thought you guys could suggest something. Seem lazy? Yes. yes it is. Anyway audience participation would be fun. Comment either here or on facebook and the best suggestion will be rambled about.
Say in about 2 hours or so?
Get voting, ttfn
Back now....oh and black ops came out and thats been taking alot of my time. It takes alot of energy to suck so hard at a game.
Got some essays due down the road so expect some more essay related whineing....uh I mean blogging.
So I figured Id try something a little differant today, rather than introduce a topic and ramble about it I thought you guys could suggest something. Seem lazy? Yes. yes it is. Anyway audience participation would be fun. Comment either here or on facebook and the best suggestion will be rambled about.
Say in about 2 hours or so?
Get voting, ttfn
Thursday 11 November 2010
Hungover people? like Gremlins apparently
So gave blood today and frankly im a little dissapointed. I was hoping to get a big rush like a kid on candy but i just feel normal....not as hot. I guess that its io feel a little colder. Ah well
today I was thinking about the movie "gremlins". You remember that one. Weird animal called a Mogwai come to small town America and causes chaos.
See there are certain rules you have to follow for the Mogwai of teeerrrrbile things will happen, they are
1.Dont expose them to bright lights, especially sunlight it will kill them.
2.Dont get them wet
3. Dont, no matter how my they cry, how much they beg, DONT feed them after midnight
And you know what I was thinking? That the rules for gremlins are the self same rules that apply to people with hangovers, its true.
1. Dont expose them to bright lights. Have you ever gone down to the shop the day after the night before? The light is like daggers in your brain. Sunglasses dont help because although they reduce the glare they make you look like a tit in mid winter. Especially sunlight, now being in your room is bad enough when the lights are on but sunlight? shudder
2. Dont get them wet. Nothing in this world makes someone look more pathetic than someone in a hangover in the rain. Seriously they look like there homeless. The sunken eyes, the pleading expression that says "i need a cheeseburger" its all there. Plus ever tried to take a shower or bath hungover? The heat, the damp, the room spinning round and round and with every breath you feel more and more sick.
3.Dont, no matter how my they cry, how much they beg, DONT feed them after midnight. Now im sure your like me. Nothing makes you feel a little better when drinking than some big greasy meal. "Tha's beter" you say "Soaks up the booze...hic...ken"
It doesn't. Studies have shown that piling a cheap curry with two pakoras on top of 6 pints of mild in fact irritates your stomach lining more and causes bad puking. It makes the bathroom experience the next morning that much worse as well. ( will this stop me eating a cheeseburger on the way home after drinks? no. no it wont)
So there you have it, hangover people are gremlins. This is more true as you get older and you wake up and feel great.
You look around and say "wow i was soooo wasted last night and I feel great now. The birds are swaying and the trees are singing, awesome. Wait for it...........AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and an hour later your pale and sweating clutching the toilet like its your one true love
Worst hangover ever?
Mine was last year after my 30'th. I woke up at 6, 7, 9.30 and again at 11 when my body said "cant sleep no more". My eyeballs felt like they had been dipped in chilli sauce, my guts where trying to make a bid for freedom and my mouth felt like something had crawled into it in the middle of the night and then died....of a hangover.
I wished for sweet release but alas I lived. Shudder
OK what was yours??
ttfn
today I was thinking about the movie "gremlins". You remember that one. Weird animal called a Mogwai come to small town America and causes chaos.
See there are certain rules you have to follow for the Mogwai of teeerrrrbile things will happen, they are
1.Dont expose them to bright lights, especially sunlight it will kill them.
2.Dont get them wet
3. Dont, no matter how my they cry, how much they beg, DONT feed them after midnight
And you know what I was thinking? That the rules for gremlins are the self same rules that apply to people with hangovers, its true.
1. Dont expose them to bright lights. Have you ever gone down to the shop the day after the night before? The light is like daggers in your brain. Sunglasses dont help because although they reduce the glare they make you look like a tit in mid winter. Especially sunlight, now being in your room is bad enough when the lights are on but sunlight? shudder
2. Dont get them wet. Nothing in this world makes someone look more pathetic than someone in a hangover in the rain. Seriously they look like there homeless. The sunken eyes, the pleading expression that says "i need a cheeseburger" its all there. Plus ever tried to take a shower or bath hungover? The heat, the damp, the room spinning round and round and with every breath you feel more and more sick.
3.Dont, no matter how my they cry, how much they beg, DONT feed them after midnight. Now im sure your like me. Nothing makes you feel a little better when drinking than some big greasy meal. "Tha's beter" you say "Soaks up the booze...hic...ken"
It doesn't. Studies have shown that piling a cheap curry with two pakoras on top of 6 pints of mild in fact irritates your stomach lining more and causes bad puking. It makes the bathroom experience the next morning that much worse as well. ( will this stop me eating a cheeseburger on the way home after drinks? no. no it wont)
So there you have it, hangover people are gremlins. This is more true as you get older and you wake up and feel great.
You look around and say "wow i was soooo wasted last night and I feel great now. The birds are swaying and the trees are singing, awesome. Wait for it...........AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and an hour later your pale and sweating clutching the toilet like its your one true love
Worst hangover ever?
Mine was last year after my 30'th. I woke up at 6, 7, 9.30 and again at 11 when my body said "cant sleep no more". My eyeballs felt like they had been dipped in chilli sauce, my guts where trying to make a bid for freedom and my mouth felt like something had crawled into it in the middle of the night and then died....of a hangover.
I wished for sweet release but alas I lived. Shudder
OK what was yours??
ttfn
Wednesday 10 November 2010
Excuse me while I change
So, change
Change happens all the time, wither you want it to or not. Like most people I'm not a fan. I like things the way they are and if I get into a routine I stick to it. However Ive got to say most of the changes in my life have lead to positive things. Take moving to a different city for example. Ive done this twice now where I don't know anyone and have no idea what's going to happen but both times its gone really well. When my dad moved us away from the only home id ever known I resented him for it but it was a good decision because the life I'm leading now would have been very different if it hadn't been for that.
Have you ever tried to do that? pin point one event in your whole life that lead you down the path your on now.
I can pin point exactly when my life changed, when it got onto the rad I'm now on.
I was in the lunch queue in high school and my friend asked me what I was doing after school finished and I said i was going into acting. Id tried all the acting colleges that i knew and had been rejected from them all. Then one of the girls from class , who had never talked to me before ( she was popular ) said "Im doing acting too, have you tired Edinburgh" and that one conversation lead me to move there next year, I met my ex there and we spent 10 very Happy years together. I would never change that one thing because although Ive not always appreciated it Ive lead a good life, not one filled with money or time off, tremendous success or more than 5 shirts but is led to love and happiness, friends I would never change. Its led me to where i am now, going to uni. (ME?...UNI?...It's nuts).
My point is that change although scary and takes you out of your comfort zone, if things arnt working out for you in a situation change it, better to do that and wonder what might have been and I'm telling you. In my thirty years on this ball of rock its not the rejections or the mocking for trying that makes me upset when i think of them its the missed chances and the regrets that keep me up at night.
Its an interesting exercise actually try and think about the one thing that changed you life forever. Something that you can trace your life now to begin responsible for.
Kevin Smith the American director once missed a plane because he was hungover.Not significant? It was headed for new York on September the 11th....yeah THAT plane
ttfn
I have to go change this empt can for a full one. See change is good :)
Change happens all the time, wither you want it to or not. Like most people I'm not a fan. I like things the way they are and if I get into a routine I stick to it. However Ive got to say most of the changes in my life have lead to positive things. Take moving to a different city for example. Ive done this twice now where I don't know anyone and have no idea what's going to happen but both times its gone really well. When my dad moved us away from the only home id ever known I resented him for it but it was a good decision because the life I'm leading now would have been very different if it hadn't been for that.
Have you ever tried to do that? pin point one event in your whole life that lead you down the path your on now.
I can pin point exactly when my life changed, when it got onto the rad I'm now on.
I was in the lunch queue in high school and my friend asked me what I was doing after school finished and I said i was going into acting. Id tried all the acting colleges that i knew and had been rejected from them all. Then one of the girls from class , who had never talked to me before ( she was popular ) said "Im doing acting too, have you tired Edinburgh" and that one conversation lead me to move there next year, I met my ex there and we spent 10 very Happy years together. I would never change that one thing because although Ive not always appreciated it Ive lead a good life, not one filled with money or time off, tremendous success or more than 5 shirts but is led to love and happiness, friends I would never change. Its led me to where i am now, going to uni. (ME?...UNI?...It's nuts).
My point is that change although scary and takes you out of your comfort zone, if things arnt working out for you in a situation change it, better to do that and wonder what might have been and I'm telling you. In my thirty years on this ball of rock its not the rejections or the mocking for trying that makes me upset when i think of them its the missed chances and the regrets that keep me up at night.
Its an interesting exercise actually try and think about the one thing that changed you life forever. Something that you can trace your life now to begin responsible for.
Kevin Smith the American director once missed a plane because he was hungover.Not significant? It was headed for new York on September the 11th....yeah THAT plane
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I have to go change this empt can for a full one. See change is good :)
Monday 8 November 2010
Thankyou for being a friend...but what kind?
So, Welcome back to the cave of crazy. I'd apologise about yesterdays...ahem, diet rant but i refuse so there. I feel better today, perhaps it was just low blood sugar or something....anyway.
Do you realise how many different friends you have? I'm not talking number of people here I'm talking about the different types. We'll make a list, I like lists. So in no order what so ever
1. The confessor: This is the person you tell everything too. Even the stuff that you should probably keep to yourself. If they ever turn on you you're in serious trouble and might even end up in jail because they know things about you that will cause your parent to turn from you in fear and disgust and make lesser mortals cower in terror. These friends are most likely ones from when you were younger and they know the thing you did at Larry's house party when his parents were out of town, and they always will.
2. The drinking buddy: You may find it awkward to talk to this person normally but get some drinks in you and suddenly your best pals until the booze runs out. Ironically most of the pictures you have on facebook will be of this person since drinking pics make it up more often. However if you meet them in the cold light of day all you can manage is an awkward hiya Most likely you know this person through work/uni or the pub you both drink at.
3. The one subject girl/guy: Wither it be sports, your course at uni, your job whatever, you always find yourself talking about this one thing with them. You literally have nothing else in common, pray you never run out of things to say. Because it will go like this.
"So then I said to my boss"
"Wait you told me this one already"
"Oh...." sounds of running feet and then a door slam and a car peeling away.
4.The best friend: now on the surface this may look like the confessor but the best friend is more like having another girl/boy friend, usually of the same sex though. This is the person you have ever adventure with , who shares your highs and lows and will always be there for you. Be honest when you need them to be and dishonest when you need that too. If you find a best friend try and hold on to them because when it all goes wrong its them who will help you clean it up.
5. the friend of a friend: GAH! nothing is worse than having someone hang around you who you have literally nothing in common with except that you both know the same person. You meet this one at house parties and weddings allot. Conversations revolve around starting topics then the other person shooting them down.
"Did you see the game?"
"I dont like sports, did you hear in the news that...."
"you watch that crap? want a beer?"
"I don't drink" aaaaand so on shudder.
6.Uh hi.....friend: for what ever reason you have known this person for longer than six months, you may know their cats names, where their tattoo is and the embarrising thing they did in the bar after three tequela sunrises but you don't know their name. It happened at a party you didn't catch it when you were introduced and now its far, far too late. The longer it goes on the more gut churningly bad it gets. Then one day you have to introduce them to someone else...by this point you have looked after their kids....and you have to say.
"John this iiiiiiiiiiiiiiis....."
and hope they get the hint
7.Oh god its this guy quick hide damn he saw me: You know him , you loathe him, your stuck with him. A co worker most likely who you cant stand but you spend more time with him than your partner and for some reason he cant get the hint you don't like him. No matter how many cancelled plans or simple refusals he wont get the hint.
Thats all the ones I can think of right now but i'd be fun if you guys added some more in the comments
No naming names lets keep it above the belt :)
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Do you realise how many different friends you have? I'm not talking number of people here I'm talking about the different types. We'll make a list, I like lists. So in no order what so ever
1. The confessor: This is the person you tell everything too. Even the stuff that you should probably keep to yourself. If they ever turn on you you're in serious trouble and might even end up in jail because they know things about you that will cause your parent to turn from you in fear and disgust and make lesser mortals cower in terror. These friends are most likely ones from when you were younger and they know the thing you did at Larry's house party when his parents were out of town, and they always will.
2. The drinking buddy: You may find it awkward to talk to this person normally but get some drinks in you and suddenly your best pals until the booze runs out. Ironically most of the pictures you have on facebook will be of this person since drinking pics make it up more often. However if you meet them in the cold light of day all you can manage is an awkward hiya Most likely you know this person through work/uni or the pub you both drink at.
3. The one subject girl/guy: Wither it be sports, your course at uni, your job whatever, you always find yourself talking about this one thing with them. You literally have nothing else in common, pray you never run out of things to say. Because it will go like this.
"So then I said to my boss"
"Wait you told me this one already"
"Oh...." sounds of running feet and then a door slam and a car peeling away.
4.The best friend: now on the surface this may look like the confessor but the best friend is more like having another girl/boy friend, usually of the same sex though. This is the person you have ever adventure with , who shares your highs and lows and will always be there for you. Be honest when you need them to be and dishonest when you need that too. If you find a best friend try and hold on to them because when it all goes wrong its them who will help you clean it up.
5. the friend of a friend: GAH! nothing is worse than having someone hang around you who you have literally nothing in common with except that you both know the same person. You meet this one at house parties and weddings allot. Conversations revolve around starting topics then the other person shooting them down.
"Did you see the game?"
"I dont like sports, did you hear in the news that...."
"you watch that crap? want a beer?"
"I don't drink" aaaaand so on shudder.
6.Uh hi.....friend: for what ever reason you have known this person for longer than six months, you may know their cats names, where their tattoo is and the embarrising thing they did in the bar after three tequela sunrises but you don't know their name. It happened at a party you didn't catch it when you were introduced and now its far, far too late. The longer it goes on the more gut churningly bad it gets. Then one day you have to introduce them to someone else...by this point you have looked after their kids....and you have to say.
"John this iiiiiiiiiiiiiiis....."
and hope they get the hint
7.Oh god its this guy quick hide damn he saw me: You know him , you loathe him, your stuck with him. A co worker most likely who you cant stand but you spend more time with him than your partner and for some reason he cant get the hint you don't like him. No matter how many cancelled plans or simple refusals he wont get the hint.
Thats all the ones I can think of right now but i'd be fun if you guys added some more in the comments
No naming names lets keep it above the belt :)
ttfn
Sunday 7 November 2010
A diet rant of epic proportions
SO
bloody dieting
makes me grumpy...and ranty
You know what the main problem is? every website tell u differant crap. This is bad no good no bad!. eat cerial but for gods sake dont eat cerial. fruit is good but only between the hours of 12 and 4....eat after 7 and u may as well kill yourself!!
I figured some fruit in the morning would be good, light lunch and proper dinner. WRONG
According to (some) websites thats the worst thing. Eat a big healthy breakfast, medium lunch and smaller dinner. no carbs, before 7.
NO carbs! every meal i know involves carbs, chips, rice, pasta some veg has carbs in it. OH yeah thats right veg is bad for you now too!
So today's food of an apple a healthy salad wrap and a stir fry?? Well why don't I just eat lard instead it would be better for me. Its like im eating poison.!
Ok a quick google search for "healthy breakfast"
options 1. muslie, hmmmm dried cardboard cut up reeeealy tiny or weetabix which is the same thing but spin into a brick that poor countries use to makes houses with
2.fresh fruit salad, so one bit of fruit baaaaad lots of expensive fruit stuff in a bowl goooooood
3. scrambled tofu..........What the F%^$ing B$*%&$ they can stuck it up there *%&)*%&$ holes untill &$(*%*(&$ (&%*&$ (%(*&£$ hair falls out!!
4.fruit smoothie, expensive stuff mixed with milk and blended to crap
5.boiled eggs and toast.... what's this doing on the list??? eggs are bad arn't they? or are they good this week
See this brings me back to the whole no one can decide whats good. No one gives a shit about anyone loosing weight because then their latest book "are you still buying this crap?" wont sell soo they keep us scared
avoid Pancakes, waffles, toast, donuts, pastries, scones, bagels, pies, sugar cereals, breakfast bars, muffins, now who in the name of spiderman eats bloody donuts fer breakfast? no wonder they need two mirrors to wash their balls.
And thats just BREAKFAST a veritable mine field of things to be avoided.
Lunch?? riveta...things on , in, combined with dry husks of bat guano
or alternatively
bloody dieting
makes me grumpy...and ranty
You know what the main problem is? every website tell u differant crap. This is bad no good no bad!. eat cerial but for gods sake dont eat cerial. fruit is good but only between the hours of 12 and 4....eat after 7 and u may as well kill yourself!!
I figured some fruit in the morning would be good, light lunch and proper dinner. WRONG
According to (some) websites thats the worst thing. Eat a big healthy breakfast, medium lunch and smaller dinner. no carbs, before 7.
NO carbs! every meal i know involves carbs, chips, rice, pasta some veg has carbs in it. OH yeah thats right veg is bad for you now too!
So today's food of an apple a healthy salad wrap and a stir fry?? Well why don't I just eat lard instead it would be better for me. Its like im eating poison.!
Ok a quick google search for "healthy breakfast"
options 1. muslie, hmmmm dried cardboard cut up reeeealy tiny or weetabix which is the same thing but spin into a brick that poor countries use to makes houses with
2.fresh fruit salad, so one bit of fruit baaaaad lots of expensive fruit stuff in a bowl goooooood
3. scrambled tofu..........What the F%^$ing B$*%&$ they can stuck it up there *%&)*%&$ holes untill &$(*%*(&$ (&%*&$ (%(*&£$ hair falls out!!
4.fruit smoothie, expensive stuff mixed with milk and blended to crap
5.boiled eggs and toast.... what's this doing on the list??? eggs are bad arn't they? or are they good this week
See this brings me back to the whole no one can decide whats good. No one gives a shit about anyone loosing weight because then their latest book "are you still buying this crap?" wont sell soo they keep us scared
avoid Pancakes, waffles, toast, donuts, pastries, scones, bagels, pies, sugar cereals, breakfast bars, muffins, now who in the name of spiderman eats bloody donuts fer breakfast? no wonder they need two mirrors to wash their balls.
And thats just BREAKFAST a veritable mine field of things to be avoided.
Lunch?? riveta...things on , in, combined with dry husks of bat guano
or alternatively
The night before: pop chopped courgette, pepper, mushrooms and strips of chicken breast into a roasting tin.
Lightly brush with olive oil, paprika and ground chilli and put in the oven on a low heat until the chicken is well cooked and veg is tender.
In the morning: pack into a plastic container and take to work with a tortilla wrap and a handful of ready-washed salad leaves.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAaaaaaaaa
moving on
a sandwich? don't be daft more carbs see, salad, no unless you make it yourself most salads bought from supermarkets contain more calories than a big mac and fries ( thats actually true)
OK, ok I've gotten that out of my system...i guess but the point still stands that this is going to be a lot harder if im going to stick with it than I thought.
I'm gonna head and drink some water... that's still fine right?
P.S You may have noticed ive changed my habit of "It's a .... thing" well its getting harder to remember which ones ive used and I'll eventually run out soooo doing something differant now. enjoy, ttfn
It's a fanboy thing
So I was reading that the new guy they have got to play spiderman in the 1211 movie...sorry remake....sorry sorry re-imagining ¬¬ is called Andrew Garfield, yeah I don't knw who he is eather.
I checked him out on IMDB and hes had a few TV appearances, he's in the facebook movie and another one out this year called "never let me go" which ive never heard of. Now before you roll your eyes and think "ah jeeze the ubergeek is gonna spew rant sauce all over his key bord" let me assure you im not. What I am going to say is that it always stricked me how crazy people get when something like this is re-cast. It's nuts, when Heath Ledge was cast as the joker they went batshit, no one will ever replace Jack Nicolous!! he's the joker now some aussie surfer type. When they origionally cast Toby Maguire they said "what the cider house rules guy?? Im going to SUE!!"
This isnt confined to movies eather, artists and writers change all the time in the comics. It can completely change the whole look and feel of the characters if the artist changed and the little fan boys go berserk.
Even I'm guilty of this ( and we all know how reasonalbe I am most of the time....coff) when they announced the new doctor who was some cretin with no previous experiance, whoes younger than me, called Matt Smith I ranted at anyone who would listen that it was a travist of justic and that I for one would not be watching.
Result? I think he's actually very suited to the role and once he gets some decent storylines it'll be an awesome show.
Back to Mr. Garfield, we will just have to wait and see, I'll be wathcing the film regardless of what people say about it because I love spidy and watch anything he's in.
That said there is no excuse for letting Nic cage be ghost rider never mind giving him a FUCKING sequal......coff
Anyway...worst pice of casting youve ever seen in a film?
Mine , apart from Sean Connery as anything other than a scot...and he's played russians, spanyards and egyptions, would have to be the old clecie of George Clooney as batman.
Cloony's a good actor if all you want him to so is give a slight smile and talk in a weird half whisper, i mean come ON what were they thinking, if batman came out of the shadows and gave you a little smirk and said hi so quietly you went sure if you'd herd him ive been more meniced by a tub of play doe. It seems almost dliberatly miscast like they WANTED the movie to fail . I ask you what the FU..........
(Chris has been lead away by kind people and given a sedative-Ed)
I checked him out on IMDB and hes had a few TV appearances, he's in the facebook movie and another one out this year called "never let me go" which ive never heard of. Now before you roll your eyes and think "ah jeeze the ubergeek is gonna spew rant sauce all over his key bord" let me assure you im not. What I am going to say is that it always stricked me how crazy people get when something like this is re-cast. It's nuts, when Heath Ledge was cast as the joker they went batshit, no one will ever replace Jack Nicolous!! he's the joker now some aussie surfer type. When they origionally cast Toby Maguire they said "what the cider house rules guy?? Im going to SUE!!"
This isnt confined to movies eather, artists and writers change all the time in the comics. It can completely change the whole look and feel of the characters if the artist changed and the little fan boys go berserk.
Even I'm guilty of this ( and we all know how reasonalbe I am most of the time....coff) when they announced the new doctor who was some cretin with no previous experiance, whoes younger than me, called Matt Smith I ranted at anyone who would listen that it was a travist of justic and that I for one would not be watching.
Result? I think he's actually very suited to the role and once he gets some decent storylines it'll be an awesome show.
Back to Mr. Garfield, we will just have to wait and see, I'll be wathcing the film regardless of what people say about it because I love spidy and watch anything he's in.
That said there is no excuse for letting Nic cage be ghost rider never mind giving him a FUCKING sequal......coff
Anyway...worst pice of casting youve ever seen in a film?
Mine , apart from Sean Connery as anything other than a scot...and he's played russians, spanyards and egyptions, would have to be the old clecie of George Clooney as batman.
Cloony's a good actor if all you want him to so is give a slight smile and talk in a weird half whisper, i mean come ON what were they thinking, if batman came out of the shadows and gave you a little smirk and said hi so quietly you went sure if you'd herd him ive been more meniced by a tub of play doe. It seems almost dliberatly miscast like they WANTED the movie to fail . I ask you what the FU..........
(Chris has been lead away by kind people and given a sedative-Ed)
Friday 5 November 2010
It's a tradition thing
So something just popped into my head
Its so weird how things that happened long ago, adjust and then become the things we know now. Example, we burn a big bonfire at this time and put a straw man on top. What if he was sick that day? better yet if he was run over by a horse. What would be do on November 5th? would we all gather round the traditional november 5th chocolate cake instead?? or or Christmas, what if the man of the house would have to curve the watermelon every year cos it was tradition. If instead of a pagan renewal ritual of bringing in greenery into the house which became "putting up the Christmas tree" what if it was tradition to have a celebration of the wildlife. Every year you'd have to keep a pig in the house for 10 days.
What if Jebus didn't rise after three days and the pagans thought the having a rabbit at spring time was a daft idea and that a crow was a better animal? We wouldn't have Easter, there would be the tradition of dressing up in black, lots of eye-liner and we would eat grapes in place of eyeballs ( crow favourite food).
And once you start to think about it the whole thing unravels before your eyes. what if there was no worship of the moon?. Monday (started as "Moonday or 'the moons day'" wouln't exist. Id be called something else, what if people felt that Hermes, messenger of the gods, would be a more appropriate Deity to lend his name too the first day of the week. Id go Hermeday, tuesday...etc. In fact if Oden had not lent his name to Wednesday then there's be no Wednesday. What if we called it Dionysus after the god or wine??? Id be Dionoday instead. What if Thor wasn't there?? no Thursday
Ok Ive gotten fixated on the day of the week thing.
Anyway so....yeah, right just think about that when you're out tonight watching the fireworks because lets face it you could have just as easily been sitting down to the traditional face painting and twister that you do every year at this time
.....why are you all looking at me like that?
Its so weird how things that happened long ago, adjust and then become the things we know now. Example, we burn a big bonfire at this time and put a straw man on top. What if he was sick that day? better yet if he was run over by a horse. What would be do on November 5th? would we all gather round the traditional november 5th chocolate cake instead?? or or Christmas, what if the man of the house would have to curve the watermelon every year cos it was tradition. If instead of a pagan renewal ritual of bringing in greenery into the house which became "putting up the Christmas tree" what if it was tradition to have a celebration of the wildlife. Every year you'd have to keep a pig in the house for 10 days.
What if Jebus didn't rise after three days and the pagans thought the having a rabbit at spring time was a daft idea and that a crow was a better animal? We wouldn't have Easter, there would be the tradition of dressing up in black, lots of eye-liner and we would eat grapes in place of eyeballs ( crow favourite food).
And once you start to think about it the whole thing unravels before your eyes. what if there was no worship of the moon?. Monday (started as "Moonday or 'the moons day'" wouln't exist. Id be called something else, what if people felt that Hermes, messenger of the gods, would be a more appropriate Deity to lend his name too the first day of the week. Id go Hermeday, tuesday...etc. In fact if Oden had not lent his name to Wednesday then there's be no Wednesday. What if we called it Dionysus after the god or wine??? Id be Dionoday instead. What if Thor wasn't there?? no Thursday
Ok Ive gotten fixated on the day of the week thing.
Anyway so....yeah, right just think about that when you're out tonight watching the fireworks because lets face it you could have just as easily been sitting down to the traditional face painting and twister that you do every year at this time
.....why are you all looking at me like that?
It's a muse thing
So today I want to go a little off topic (don't you always-Ed) and talk about something close to my heart...my lungs (couldn't have stopped myself for a big bag of skittles). I want to talk about writing (again??) OK enough brackets (o.O).
Specifically the concept of the Muse.In ancient Greece these Goddesses would whisper in your ear and inspire you to great creative heights. They are traditionally depicted as beautiful women, usually holding musical instruments or the "masks" of drama.
When I mentioned Muses those of you who knew what they were most likely thought of twinkling fairy light like tinkerbell.
When most writers are asked they usually talk of thinking about something completely different when inspiration suddenly hits. That , for want of a better word, I a Muse. Now I want to be clear I don't actually think this person is real, Im not delusional.
Mines not like that.
She doesn't say much for a start, and frankly she's quite impatient with me allot of the time. She also likes to tell me things when Im miles away from paper and pen. Actually this happens allot to me. My brain will tell me ive forgotten something when Im at the front door but wont tell what that thing is.
ME: Just tell me, I'll read something really intellectual for you later.
BRAIN: No. Besides reading about spiderman online is not "intellectual"
Then about an hour later, or whenever I'm at the cash register, he'll wait until im one from the front and whisper
"You don't have you wallet"
Such is life......what was I talking about, oh yeah Muses.
Thinking about Muses, in turn makes me think of the fact that we aren't really one person but lots. Seriously are you the same person with you parents as with your friends?
"Oi, Ma!! pass them MOFO potatoes willya, im fecking parched gaspin over here"
Mu Huh....
SO Muses, you know if you don't stop interrupting me I'll never get done.
Your job , when writing, is to show up at the same time every day and write, regardless of how inspired you feel. The Muse will descend when she's good and ready. That way she can find you easily should she deign to join you.
So I should probably go back to studying now but before I do, do us a favour and put the link for the blog on your facebook channels too. That way friends of friends get to see the ramblings.
Probably don't show them the two drunk ones first though eh
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Specifically the concept of the Muse.In ancient Greece these Goddesses would whisper in your ear and inspire you to great creative heights. They are traditionally depicted as beautiful women, usually holding musical instruments or the "masks" of drama.
When I mentioned Muses those of you who knew what they were most likely thought of twinkling fairy light like tinkerbell.
When most writers are asked they usually talk of thinking about something completely different when inspiration suddenly hits. That , for want of a better word, I a Muse. Now I want to be clear I don't actually think this person is real, Im not delusional.
Mines not like that.
She doesn't say much for a start, and frankly she's quite impatient with me allot of the time. She also likes to tell me things when Im miles away from paper and pen. Actually this happens allot to me. My brain will tell me ive forgotten something when Im at the front door but wont tell what that thing is.
ME: Just tell me, I'll read something really intellectual for you later.
BRAIN: No. Besides reading about spiderman online is not "intellectual"
Then about an hour later, or whenever I'm at the cash register, he'll wait until im one from the front and whisper
"You don't have you wallet"
Such is life......what was I talking about, oh yeah Muses.
Thinking about Muses, in turn makes me think of the fact that we aren't really one person but lots. Seriously are you the same person with you parents as with your friends?
"Oi, Ma!! pass them MOFO potatoes willya, im fecking parched gaspin over here"
Mu Huh....
SO Muses, you know if you don't stop interrupting me I'll never get done.
Your job , when writing, is to show up at the same time every day and write, regardless of how inspired you feel. The Muse will descend when she's good and ready. That way she can find you easily should she deign to join you.
So I should probably go back to studying now but before I do, do us a favour and put the link for the blog on your facebook channels too. That way friends of friends get to see the ramblings.
Probably don't show them the two drunk ones first though eh
ttfn
Thursday 4 November 2010
It's a like thing
So, I have talked allot about stress and all the bad that's going on. Time for some good.
There is stuff in my life is good, friends, family, the work im doing. and there is stuff I have that de-stresses me when the bad stuff happens.....stuff
I like stepping out of the shower on a cold day and look at the steam coming off me and pretend that im the human torch, I like an ice cold beer on a warm day, I like playing with lego, I like a really satisfying steak with a backed potato on the side with just a knob of butter for garnish.
I lie taking long walks on a chilly autumn day where i can kick the frost tipped leaves up in the air as I go. I like to crack every knuckle. I like a reaaaaaly good stretch. I like waking up to naked women in my bed. I like it when I walk into the room and someone in it had a smile for me. I like ice in my glass. I like the satisfying crunch my shoes make on fresh snow. I like stationary. I like the feeling you get when you hand in a peace of work that's your best. I like shooting the shit with my brothers. I like when someone phones out of the blue just to see how im doing. I like to receive a handwritten letter from someone. I like it when you catch a girl staring at you and the blush she gets when she realises. I like superhero's. I like the sea. I like swimming. I like to dance like no one else is watching. I like a jack Daniels and coke, lotsa ice. I like books. I like the feeling you get when something new is starting. I like a good cry.
I like the feeling that every day is new , that everything is possible, that the next day could be the day where it all changes for the better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ
What do you like?
There is stuff in my life is good, friends, family, the work im doing. and there is stuff I have that de-stresses me when the bad stuff happens.....stuff
I like stepping out of the shower on a cold day and look at the steam coming off me and pretend that im the human torch, I like an ice cold beer on a warm day, I like playing with lego, I like a really satisfying steak with a backed potato on the side with just a knob of butter for garnish.
I lie taking long walks on a chilly autumn day where i can kick the frost tipped leaves up in the air as I go. I like to crack every knuckle. I like a reaaaaaly good stretch. I like waking up to naked women in my bed. I like it when I walk into the room and someone in it had a smile for me. I like ice in my glass. I like the satisfying crunch my shoes make on fresh snow. I like stationary. I like the feeling you get when you hand in a peace of work that's your best. I like shooting the shit with my brothers. I like when someone phones out of the blue just to see how im doing. I like to receive a handwritten letter from someone. I like it when you catch a girl staring at you and the blush she gets when she realises. I like superhero's. I like the sea. I like swimming. I like to dance like no one else is watching. I like a jack Daniels and coke, lotsa ice. I like books. I like the feeling you get when something new is starting. I like a good cry.
I like the feeling that every day is new , that everything is possible, that the next day could be the day where it all changes for the better.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ
What do you like?
Tuesday 2 November 2010
It's a writing thing
So here I sit between class, having the time and the inclination to write but no real inspiration. I decided therefore to come over here and type nonsense for a bit hopefully that will get me going.
I do love writing but sometimes when you are looking at that mocking white page with the little icon thing flashing back and forth , which in my head in my darker moments is saying "no talent no talent no talent" in time with the blinks.....damn what is the little flashy thing called..its not icon, what is it?
TO GOOGLE!!
OK its called a caret.
Now I can move on with my life.
Anyway so the caret is flashing away and bugging me and the page is still maddeningly blank. Steven King once said "writing is easy all you have to do is stare at the blank page until your forehead bleeds" I know what he's talking about. Still any bad day of writing is better than any good day with out it so I persevere.
When I was younger worked in shops I used to write ideas for stories on the back of till receipts. Id hit the "feed" button and reams of white paper would spit out and id write in tiny writing. Sometimes I could fit a whole story on there if it was a quiet enough day. Then later I wrote long hand in old jotter books. I like writing long hand actually, typing has a pain sometimes because it can slow you down if you start making mistakes but the same problem with a twist happens writing with pen. I get excited about what I'm writing and my writing becomes intelligible even to me later. So the detail gets lost.
King says you should write ever day, including your birthdays, Christmas and new years. Frankly he makes a good point as he owns two houses and has more money than Midus. Do I write every day? Technically yes. I have this blog, i write thoughts down but I certainly don't write full blown fiction every day. Perhaps I should? Ah but that might take me away from my studies. But then allot of writers have gotten where they are today by burning the candle at both ends. Most started with full time jobs. King worked washing laundry, and was a teacher of English when his first book "carrie" was sold. He didn't quit his job right away either. It was only when his third book "The shineing" went on sale that he made that move.
Inciently I've just noticed I put both book titles in italics like you have to do in an essay.....sigh its rotted my brain.
In third year for English one of my options is a creative writing module, I'd have to be a fool to pas sup the chance to learn from professionals. Apparently all you have to do is submit a peace of work to them and they allow you in based on that. It also means I can get a gage on whither I'm any good or not. If I'm going to do that of course I should probably be more dedicated and start writing every day....hmmmm
Well Ive got to go as I have a sudden urge to go write
OK favourite author? pace of prose or poetry??
Ive got too many to talk about but I will leave you with a peace of Terry Prattchett
"In the beginning there was nothing. Which exploded"
hehehehehehe
I do love writing but sometimes when you are looking at that mocking white page with the little icon thing flashing back and forth , which in my head in my darker moments is saying "no talent no talent no talent" in time with the blinks.....damn what is the little flashy thing called..its not icon, what is it?
TO GOOGLE!!
OK its called a caret.
Now I can move on with my life.
Anyway so the caret is flashing away and bugging me and the page is still maddeningly blank. Steven King once said "writing is easy all you have to do is stare at the blank page until your forehead bleeds" I know what he's talking about. Still any bad day of writing is better than any good day with out it so I persevere.
When I was younger worked in shops I used to write ideas for stories on the back of till receipts. Id hit the "feed" button and reams of white paper would spit out and id write in tiny writing. Sometimes I could fit a whole story on there if it was a quiet enough day. Then later I wrote long hand in old jotter books. I like writing long hand actually, typing has a pain sometimes because it can slow you down if you start making mistakes but the same problem with a twist happens writing with pen. I get excited about what I'm writing and my writing becomes intelligible even to me later. So the detail gets lost.
King says you should write ever day, including your birthdays, Christmas and new years. Frankly he makes a good point as he owns two houses and has more money than Midus. Do I write every day? Technically yes. I have this blog, i write thoughts down but I certainly don't write full blown fiction every day. Perhaps I should? Ah but that might take me away from my studies. But then allot of writers have gotten where they are today by burning the candle at both ends. Most started with full time jobs. King worked washing laundry, and was a teacher of English when his first book "carrie" was sold. He didn't quit his job right away either. It was only when his third book "The shineing" went on sale that he made that move.
Inciently I've just noticed I put both book titles in italics like you have to do in an essay.....sigh its rotted my brain.
In third year for English one of my options is a creative writing module, I'd have to be a fool to pas sup the chance to learn from professionals. Apparently all you have to do is submit a peace of work to them and they allow you in based on that. It also means I can get a gage on whither I'm any good or not. If I'm going to do that of course I should probably be more dedicated and start writing every day....hmmmm
Well Ive got to go as I have a sudden urge to go write
OK favourite author? pace of prose or poetry??
Ive got too many to talk about but I will leave you with a peace of Terry Prattchett
"In the beginning there was nothing. Which exploded"
hehehehehehe
Monday 1 November 2010
It's a stress thing
I noticed the serious problem my pen was having (see I chew pen lids if im stressed) during my film leacure today, this means that I didn't really pay attention to the lecture. (which was really good cos it was about invasion of the body snatchers) so im sorry I missed it.
Im sorry I just realised how deathly dull this is....
Seriously you sit down with you cup of tea/bottle of beer/tall glass with a dash of rum, milk and ice whatever. And your Oreo cookie.... there's no other options if you don't like Oreo cookies then there's no hope for you. And load up blogger to view your daily slice of odd and suddenly.......pen lid.
Aaaanyway As the pen lid can testify things are stressful right now essays are handed in but now I have to deal with the massive back log of stuff ive missed out on doing owing to essays.
Hopefully this will be the last mention of essays for a while Im sick of typing it. Frankly however thats all that going on in my life right now. Today I over head someone talking about studying for their exams, which in 4 or 5 weeks. I mean yeah be prepared OK but is there any need to scare the bee jebus outa me?
The movie for facebook is coming out soon..... I'm not sure how I feel about this. I mean if were going to go down this road why not have a movie about youtube?
Nic Cage IS the troll. a guy who will go to any lengths to hack people off by making obviously inflammatory comments just to annoy folk.
Or a movie about blogger?
Silverster Stallone IS blogboy34, he mainly talks about his kids with the implications that he is the first person to ever go through 3am feedings.
Just a thought....
So im stressed because when I finish up here I have to go watch two films (cos i missed the leacture) each two hours long for class tomorrow at 9am. I mean normally I'd sit here and watch movies but these are for claaaaass man !!!
Favourite movie you would like to see based on a website?
Mine would be iambored.com. I'd be differant you've got to admit and the title alone would be a draw.
I have to go watch black and white movies till I fall asleep at the keyboard.
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